do you know what you want to do with your life?
i started out as being pre-med in college, but soon did away with organic chemistry and am now left with so many possibilities. at times, i feel lost, and i feel that i must decide now so i could create a path to that unnamed career. i briefly modeled when i was in middle school for the gap and the children's place, and although now i don't meet the credentials for a typical male model, i feel that it could at least help me generate some income so i won't have to ultimately rely on my parents. sorry for this long ass question, but i've been unhealthily dwelling over this and it's been driving me nuts.
Ohhh, how I think we all know that feeling of listlessness and fear of the unknown. I know I deal with it every single day. To be honest, I really don’t know what I will eventually do. I have an idea that I want to be out of modeling in under a year and off to work in radio journalism. It’s something I feel as if I have to do. For the time being, I want to make some change to save up and then move into a new field.
I understand so much of the push and pull you’re feeling. I feel as if you are best off just finishing your degree in what you are strongest at. If it’s pre-med/organic chem, then do it. If it’s fucking art - go for it. Business? Do it. Just finish your degree. Even if it’s not for your specific career, it will be finished and done. Reality is that something over half of bachelor’s recipients rarely go into their specific field. It can mean everything (med school) or nothing (me + degree ≠ journalist).
As for the modeling, just finish you schooling first. I know too many models who are struggling to juggle school and castings/auditions/work. It doesn’t work out well and they end up just dropping school all together. Maybe my value set is different, but it just worked better for me. And, since you’re a guy, male models have a longer shelf-life then women. You can start working later and if you’re successful, last longer in that industry. So, good luck! Don’t make yourself sick over it, the only thing stopping you from moving forward is your own brain. It’s easier than you think. xo
were you interested in modeling before you were scouted? what do you think you would be doing at this exact moment in life if you didn't become a model?
Good heavens, no. I was a senior in college when I was scouted, two months before I graduated. I had it ingrained in my mind I wanted to move to NY or DC and be a policy intern for NPR - it was the only thing on my mind. Then, it was like wildfire and in a month’s time I had signed, flown to NY for a few shoots to build my book up and then flown back for my finals and graduation. Then, I immediately moved to NY to do the F/W shows in January of 2009. Talk about a game changer.
(I still dream about working for NPR every single day).
how did you become a model? like, how did they find you?
I was scouted by a booker from Ford in San Francisco while shopping in H&M. I was out there visiting some friends on a free weekend from school. Then, I made contacts with my current mother agent who placed me with New York Models, LA Models and Elite.
I lived in NY for a year after graduating university, did two show seasons, went to Milan and Paris for three months and then moved to LA where I’ve been for a year. It’s been a roller coaster ride, that’s for damn sure. I don’t have a NY agency anymore, but it’s in the works. I’d like to go back for direct bookings and maybe a show season if I’m feeling spunky. xo
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